Lemme say this off the top: I have nothing to say today that has any direct relevance to chemo. The fact is, I’m afraid if I don’t blog relatively often, like a few times a week, I’ll blow the whole thing off, like I did the first time I set up a blog. Yes, this is a reincarnation of a failed blogging attempt a couple of years ago. Right now, I’m talking into the void. If anybody is out there, they are not making themselves known. It’s exactly what happened before, and that’s why I stopped blogging. I can talk to myself without a computer.
There’s another drawback to staying too long at the fair, so to speak. Blogging about illness can, if not done judiciously, be a bad thing. Dwelling in the land of the sick, even if we are sick, ourselves, is something we should all control very carefully. Thinking about it can turn unhealthy and counterproductive. Here’s what I mean:
I get a targeted health-related newsletter that I won’t name, on a daily basis. I signed up, but when I tried to get out of it, none of the links worked (on purpose, maybe?). At first, I started getting involved. I wanted to answer every frightened person who posted, I wanted to help. I still do, and occasionally I offer a comment or opinion. But if I go there every day, or if I spend too much time there, I feel depressed. Almost everybody on the site is sick or caring for someone who is, so depression is a logical response. But luckily, I seem to know my limits. I don’t go there every day, I only go on impulse, I don’t get sucked in to getting more involved than I can handle.
Partly, I’m responding this way to that site because personally, I don’t care what drugs my doctor chooses to treat me, as long as they work. So far, she’s been right. So my thinking is, she’s doing her job, and I’m doing mine, which is to try to stay vigilant and live as healthy a life as I can without giving up chocolate, fat, sugar… Well, those are my choices!
Fear can make us vigilant, or it can dominate our lives and make us unable to make judgments or take actions. It’s vitally important that we know the difference, and act accordingly. That’s how we keep our sanity and a good part of how we maintain our health.